settled at the bottom pt.II

feeling ashamed
feeling nothing
feel as if I'm dead inside
feelings fleeting
feels beneath me
feel the darkness in the light

saw the fog roll in
saw the thickened skin
saw everyone cry but why
complication has had enough
suffocating don't give a fuck
sediments rising I come alive

this gift is for you...

settled at the bottom pt.I

the sea of disease is calling me, sometimes I can't believe, what's become of me.
the flood comes in at high tide,
there is no room to hide,
so I sink in the tide.

pulls me under,
waits for room for one more

stains for all my crimes,
no more kiss me goodbye

oh, wo is the pain

so trin today fractured her left ringfinger. how?

well...apparently she had to go to the bathroom soooooooo bad, she forgot to remove her hand while slamming the stall door shut. oops. BAM! 4hrs and almost $6000 (pre insurance claim) later, trin is knocked out with a heart monitor and tube stuck down her throat... its operation time. 1hr later and she's still out but has a rod inserted into her hand holding her ringfinger in place. funn.

she never made it to go to tje bathroom, now, 5hrs later, ahe STILL hasnt gone....

nerves or what?

poor kid... following in my footsteps. by age 10 I had:

- drank draino
- fallen down a 2 story flight of stairs (outside)
- stapled my fingers together
- broke the growth bone in my right hand
- sliced my finger open with a razor blade
- my face ripped open by a sprinkler head
- died, i was hit by a truck fracturing my head, broken wide open out the back
- shot a 3/4 staple through my left hand
- almost died again but of alcohol poisoning

the list goes on and on..

so, trins had a broken arm (fell of the monkey bars) and now this....

LET THE GAMES..... BEGIN!