sprinkled with saddness with what seems like forever

i felt your last breath
between the sheets
you welcomed death

stand up to the lights
please think again
kiss me goodbye

follow and fluttering
soiled and sparkling
silent and whispering
you werent there

cold and shivering
weathered and blistering
stumble and na na na
you werent there

if i could i would swing you forever
tattoo wings
rubbing hands back together
lift the shadow
peel back the layers
make you promise
tease and watch the time pass
swallow my pride
wait for the moon
kiss all the tigers
stare at the stars
gone

i was me, but you... you werent you

last nite, i had a dream
i was me, but you... you weren't you
i was as i have always been, quite, alone, meek and scared

we wondered, it was cold
the were many lines, at first, there was no one, only us.. .you and i
we were on a mountain, a resort
.. .and then, then it opened
we stuck me as unusual was the way it changed

we were so happy, as one being, fluid in every way
you recalled how i made you smile, even through the pain
i looked into your eyes to be warm, safe
... and i was
as you were, hand in hand, step within step

when the time came, it came fast
it was early afternoon or morning, i cant exactly recall
the lines opened and from nowhere, people arrived
ALOT of people
i was lost, or, as it felt, you were gone
instead, somehow... i was working with the employees

the were confused and needed help
you were missing
as were all of the people who came to the park
so.. i worked
whiteout, that's all we saw
a thick blanket of snow
the parks employees didn't seem to concerned with your disappearance, they knew where you were

soon, i grew more lonely
it felt like death
i was sad but couldn't cry, they see, it was cold, id freeze
the walls were white and cool shade of blue
the front was all glass, beautiful and crisp clear thick glass
soundproof as i recall

the lines filled again and the employees readied
it was now dark
the snow slowed
i felt a warming from within
i saw you.. but, you weren't you
i felt as two

time felt like it didn't exist.. but did, and it moved quickly
you were shiny and new
people surrounded you
enamoured by you, you relished in it, bathed in it

you knew me, but didnt care
i ran to you, you looked away
you looked familiar but not as i recalled
you were as youve always been
so beautiful, so warm
but you touch was ice
it burned

i followed you outside
people were everywhere
i asked why i was left alone
you never spoke, or at least, all i could hear, was the people
thier quite roar

you were a stranger and all that we were was gone
soon
again
you were gone
so were the people
the staff
the whispers
the roars

just i
just the cold
alone

now all im left with is the longing
was i me but you werent you
or
was it. .
you were you and i wasnt me

who was lost
who left who

i have to believe...

i was me, but you... you werent you

tudors of ghosts

all of us want something more
all of us want to be make believe
pulling out all our teeth
pulling away from each other
as we fall asleep
never knowing what the tomorrow brings
what the time would mean
take it away
smother it in blame
take a pill
fade away
decay

all of us want to be more
all of us watch it in make believe
scratching out our eyes
bleached black blanket our lies
hold up your heart
hold up the worst of it
showered it in acid
lose yourself
where did i go
was it not in my hands
just one more try
once again
no more
yes
we lie